Well, last week has been busy. Started out with a visit to my OBGYN for all the pain and months of bleeding that just wont stop. So that visit didn't go well, i ended up seeing the PA- (Physicians assistant) because it would have been another 2 weeks to get into my OB. So i took that. Well she wasn't very pleasant to say the least. & she was very pregnant, so of course that wasn't good to see. Blah. Anyways she just kinda shrugged it off (what i told her). I told her lets just put getting pregnant on the back burner for now, I've been having alot of pains lately, and they are increasingly getting worse and more painful and accompanied with the bleeding, that i and my family were starting to get concerned about me. So she basically said the pain wasn't anything new Ive been talking about it from the beginning. But she wasn't listening to the fact that in the beginning it wasn't chronic it was random. But it has become a chronic pain. Needless to say, i asked for some blood work and she ordered it and said she wants me to have another sonohysterogram. I am in no way shape or form looking forward to this test. I'm sure any fellow Infertility dealing readers know exactly what I'm talking about. But to those who don't, it is INCREDIBLY painful. For those that do not know what this test entails, let me explain. A small catheter is inserted into the uterus, which sucks. It hurts, once that is in they fill the uterus with saline, which is well for me at least excruciating. It causes EXTREME cramping. Last time i had it i nearly PASSED out. I swore i would never have it again. But was told it was very important to see whats going on. But anyways the soonest they could get me in was NOV 26th. Ya i was pretty irked about that. The longer i wait, the longer i have to bail on it. But we will see. I know something is going on and i need to find out what. Blah.
Anyways the next day the PA called me and told me my thyroid function tests were high. So she wanted me to see an endocrinologist. So i made an appt and they actually had an appt available the next day so i was like sweet, at least this one wont hurt. So anyways she was excellent, very nice. I told her about how Ive been struggling to conceive and also trying to lose weight for the last 8 months with minimum results. 25lbs. I mentioned how the PA i saw yesterday blaimed basically everything on my weight. Was very rude about it. Which my OB is not. Anyways endo said not everything is weight related. Anyways that's neither here, nor there. She said when trying to conceive she wants patients TSH level to be under 2!! 2!! Insane to me. Mine was 7.62 when i was OBgyn so she retested it and some antibodies, said my thyroid felt fine so she didn't feel the need for any other tests. Said if my TSH is still high she will start synthroid to get my levels below 2 which will help with trying to conceive and other factors. So anyways didn't really rememember much about it. But got my test results in the mail today and antibodies were OK, but tsh was OK 3.6 or something similar which she wants lower. So I'm starting synthroid. So i decided to take to google and found out that this is a common thing in trying to conceive that lowering the TSH sometimes works right away to get ovulation back and regulate system. I had NO clue. I guess i should have googled that a long time ago. So we are not ACTIVELY trying right now because i have so much other stuff going on. BUT if this will help get my system back on track, its about damn time. Anyways did anyone else relate TSH to conceiving? this is the article i read.
http://forums.fertilitycommunity.com/thyroid-problems/2020188578-tsh-levels-must-read.html
Well hoping this puts me in the right direction. I try to say that i am putting getting pregnant on the back burner, but lets face it, its always right there. You cant hide from it. You think you're OK with it not happening right now until you hear person after person getting pregnant or you see a newborn baby in a store, then the pain comes. The reminders, the shot to the heart. Its always there, no matter what. You can only fool yourself for so long. But here's to pretending! HA.
On another note, i need to get moving on my career path. Don't know why i am still sitting here planning and not just putting one foot in front of the other and getting this shit done. I have a horrible time getting motivated. Kept saying i was going to take the classes for the last month and here i am still not taking them. I have missed all the good ones. Ugh time to get this going! But sadly tomorrow will come and i wont make my first step. Blah.
OK off to sleep now. Thanks anyone who listened to story. :)
Krystal :)
