Hey everyone. Sorry I haven't posted lately. Just been dealing with some stuff. Anyways I will fill you in on my latest drs visit in a bit. But right now i just wanted to write about my dream last night about my momow.
This is the second time in about a week where I've had a similar dream. I can't remember the details as usual. But what I remember is seeing momows face in the dream. All I remember is just seeing her face, just appear. Nothing was said either time, just remember seeing her & crying. Both times it woke me up because I was crying. Then I desperately try to get back to sleep to see the rest but I can't get back to it. But last night was different. I remember just seeing her as if she was standing behind me, I think I remember her having a wings. Not sure if they were just like the Halloween costume Wings but def wings. Now I know & say she is my angel. So who knows. But the way the dreams felt is different than anything in the past. In past dreams i remember seeing & talking to her in some odd scenarios. But the past 2 times I remember no talking, nothing, all I remember is seeing her face & waking up In tears. I miss her so much. I don't know if the dreams are just a way of telling me that she's with me, or that I'm not alone. I'm not sure. Either way I wish I could see her more in my dreams, & be able to remember it when I wake up.
Anyways, about my doctors appt. I went in for my sonohysterogram & i did the ultrasound but the dr came in & had looked over my history & my recent visit notes (I saw her PA), & she didn't think we needed to do another. She instead wants me to have surgery to look for endometriosis. She says my symptoms sound much more like that. Which had been my suspicion since the beginning. & it's strange because I mentioned that to the pa when I saw her and she said they never do any endo tests. Well safe to say I won't be seeing her again!! Anyways they are going to do a D & C with uterine biopsy, they will do the sono while I am under anesthesia. They will also be doing a laparoscopic exploratory surgery of the stomach area. So I will have 3 incisions to look inside. So hopefully we will def have some answers. It is scheduled for jan 8th. I'm pretty freaked out, I've never had any kind of surgery before. Never been under anesthesia. So ya I'm pretty worried. I know it's common surgery, but still. Surgery is surgery!
But anyways that's all I have to say for now. Goodnight/day anyone who reads.
With love,
Krystal
