Missing you.

I'm so tired of trying to be so strong, & holding everything in. I feel like I can't show emotion. ESP around certain people.

5 years since we lost Momow. I have so much to say on that. Just can't right now. It's too hard. I miss her more than I can even explain. If she was here I know things would be completely different than they are now.....she believed in me like nobody else did. She loved me like nobody else.

Things are so screwed up. I am a failure. If she was here I would have never let her see me fail. I wanted to make her proud more than anything.

Momow, I miss you.... I hope u can hear me...

I am so broken...