Whoops

Well, I've been neglecting this blog pretty badly. Basically because no one reads it anyways, plus nothing much to say. Really don't know if I want to be very open about a lot of things anymore. I've become a very private person lately. If you ask I will tell, but I don't put much out there. 

One thing that's bugging me lately and it probably has a lot to do with me being more private, is people using Facebook as their diaries!! I feel like people post so much of their lives for the whole world to see all day long. Because of this I barely read my feed anymore, mostly because I've recently realized I just don't care. I'm not talking about big life events, I'm referring to little tiny rants about the most ridiculous things. I used to be guilty of this myself, but sometime recently I realized that people read that and they get a very bad impression of you. I don't want anyone reading my page and going holy crap, she's got issues. I'd prefer to slide in under the radar with my issues because obviously I may have a few. Some may say a whole truck load, but that's life. I've realized lately that no one has it easy, no ones life is perfect. Even the most perfect appearing people have their own problems. We just don't know about it, because they don't announce them on Facebook!! I guess this blog is basically about Facebook and actually I'm Not even sure why. Well hang in there, maybe I will get something interesting in here. 

The past 2 years without my dad have been very hard, but that is to be expected. It's all of a sudden you realize you're living a new life, your old life is gone. The old person you used to be is gone. you are a new version of yourself. Because everything changes. You entered the storm as one person and you come out a completely changed person. Is that person a better version or worse? Well that is to still be determined. Has the storm passed? Certainly not, but I am definitely not the same person I was over 2 years ago. Death changes you, it changes EVERYTHING. 

The husband and I are still trying to get our family started, but just more hurdles at every turn. I'll maybe go into that more at some point, but for now I think I'll just keep that to myself. Like I said, I'm In a private mood lately. 

I don't even know what I went on here to write. Just basically to say hello, im still here. So if anyone reads this, hello!! But as I suspect no one does. 

Alright I'm Off for now this app on my phone for this is really annoying. It keeps havjng me type the words below where I can see them. So if you see a lot of typos I'm Sorry. I don't feel like editing this right now.

Off to try to sleep, oh insomnia you're killing me!! 

I'll Write soon! 

~K