Father's Day rant

I can't fuc***** handle the Father's Day stuff all over. I see it in stores, on fb, commercials. I can't handle it. Father's Day I always did something special for my dad. He usually got 3 cards because I could never decide, so i got them all, they all represented how much he meant to me. he would call them books cause they were the long cards. They always made him tear up. I just saw a post on fb about it hence why I'm ranting here.

 I saw a picture frame in meijer 2 weeks ago and it said world best grandpa and worlds best dad and I wanted to smash them On the ground and almost started to cry. He never got the chance to have his picture in a grandpa frame. & that breaks my heart. When and if me and Chris have children they will never know how great my dad was. They will never know him. He was amazing with kids. This breaks my heart. For me, for him, for my future kids if that ever happens. Wake me up when June ends, in the mean time ill be sleeping in a dream world where my dad is still here and I am not almost at the point of a nervous breakdown. I am so broken. & I feel so very alone. So very alone. I told my dad everything, he was always there, it's been almost 3 months. They say its supposed to get easier but it is getting worse and worse. I don't know how to keep going on......

Krystal